Unhappy

Truth to be told, I am not anymore happy with what Im doing.

Yes, I'm stressed but it should not matter. If I love what I'm doing, at the end of the day, I'll sleep with no worry and wakes up looking forward for the day.

But what's happening is the total opposite. I'm dreading everyday I go to work. I don't even have the energy to start my task. I don't know where to start and how to end.

I'm satisfied with my previous task and I'm loving it. But unfortunately, I was given a new task and moved to a new core group, and honestly, I am not loving it, nor closer to liking.

It's like this task is draining my energy everyday. My brain can't produce any idea anymore. I don't even like to smile cause I feel dead inside. I'm like a robot built to do what was commanded. No feelings, no emotions and can't even say No. And I don't want to talk to someone coz I fear I might burst to tears if I start blabbing.

So. Here is where I end up. Ruining my blog. Blabbing nonsense just to ease what I'm feeling. Please just ignore this. Kapeesh? :)

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First Blood

I'm a fan of blog sites coz I love reading. I always wanted to have a blog of my own but I'm just not good in maintaining one. That's because I'm a laaaaaaazy and start-now-finish-it-someday type. Also, I don't have the talent in writing, which is really unfortunate for me :) I'd attempted many times to keep a blog but it always ended up either empty or left hanging or simply forgotten. There was one blog I kept before - that's because it was required by our college professor - but luckily.. it was forgotten after I graduated. Since then, I always tried to set up a new blog but, yeah, it was, as always, forgotten.

And now, my friends/classmates a.k.a. Ban of Belers *scratch Belers*.. Ban of Brothers (BoB) got back to blogging (I dunno if they stopped like I did. :D). They always skyped to visit their blogs and blah blah. As their friend *angel face*, I visit their blog for the sake of an increase on their $. Haha. Nah. I did it just because they said so. But really, it's for the $, right? :)

One of my friend, Mish, got encourage to make a blog of her ow. So she did, and as well as I. Well, I just hope and pray to the gods of blog that I can keep this blog up and kicking.
FIRST BLOOD! *for this blog* :))

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